Tis been too long.

Ah, it's been too long since my last post. I feel a bit bad. I just don't have all that much time anymore and I'm constantly busy and I never get enough sleep.

Anyway, into business.

I had a bit of Alex trouble. It didn't start off as trouble, but of course it turned into it... what else would happen?
He emailed me a lot of pictures that were taken in the last five years. Some of him, Nicky, Nolan, Sam, Nathan, me, and other people we know mutually... It was cute and I really liked how sweet it was. He also said something along the lines that he was just looking at all of these pictures and he was thinking about all the good times.

Well, that was really really sweet, so I called him and told him that he should come and visit Nicky and I with Nathan. He agreed and they also brought Nolan and Sam along. Everything seemed alright at first, but then Alex decided that, even though his boyfriend was sitting right there, he was going to be all over me. I told him to stop it multiple times, for Nathan's sake.

You see, Nicky and I have a somewhat open relationship. We talked about or values between each other and we decided that we can have close relationships with people other than each other. Nothing extreme, mind; but, we can touch and kiss out friends more intimately than other people in relationships would. This is why I wouldn't have minded, had it not been for Nathan.

I could tell that a couple of things that Alex did or said to me made Nathan a bit uncomfortable, which then made me uncomfortable, and then Nicky was uncomfortable. Alex was the only one so self-absorbed that he couldn't even tell that I wanted him to stop. So, I just discreetly explained the situation to Nicky and I excused myself to my room alone.

After awhile, Alex came up and said he wanted to talk to me... and I kept refusing and he would leave and then the process would repeat. It kind of made me more and more angry. Then, I finally let him in once and we talked for awhile. It kind of made it better, a little. I told him what an epic cunt he was being and he almost felt bad about it.I asked him if he had had the "open relationship" talk with Nathan yet (because he originated the idea and he has it with every partner he gets with for any length of time)... and he said no. I was kind of surprised, but then he explained that it's because he doesn't know how Nathan would react to it, which is very understandable.

Then, Nathan and Nicky came up to my room to hang out and Nolan and Sam left. Alex and Nathan stayed the night and then spent the day in town just wondering around. I didn't really get to see them before they left, but they seemed fine. they still haven't had the talk, but if Alex doesn't want to have it then he doesn't have to... but he has to either have it or stop doing what he's doing because it's borderline uncalled for behavior.

It tends to be difficult for people who Alex and I date to grasp that we have a history. What we have isn't going to just disappear... it just gets swept under the rug for awhile. Nicky's accepted it and he's embraced it, developing his own special relationship with Alex. I'd like for Nathan to embrace it as well because I actually like him and I think we could be really good friends. I just don't want him to resent me for what I may or may not have had with Alex at one time.

I haven't really talked to Alex much since then, so I don't know where the situation is now. I assume that if anything major had happened, Alex would have called and told me... but that's just an educated guess.

Anything else I'd say in this post would revolve around my boring life at school. I really don't feel like talking about that though, so I'll leave off now.

-Peter