I'm actually quite unhappy this morning... not with Nicky or anything like that... I just am. I was thinking about someone who's... not around anymore and I guess it always makes me a little sad. =.\ His name was Daniel... I'm missing him hard because it's almost a year since he died. It's weird because I knew him for last summer... but... I loved him. A lot. And, he didn't know. I regret not telling him... I don't know if that would change things though. Probably not.Sometimes I wonder if Nicky has any relationships that he regrets not saying something or anything like that... anything that eats him up... I'm too afraid to ask him though... if he wanted me to know, he'd tell me. That's how I see it... I don't want to push him. It's usually the way he handles me. I hope he doesn't. I don't want him to feel unhappy. =.\ But, I guess everyone probably does.
So, I'm cheering myself up, because Nicky's at work, with corny love songs that we've adopted as ours and Rice Krispies treats. I forgot that I loved them, but they make me thirsty... and I haven't a beverage. Efff... Oh well. I believe he's going to be late today. His turn signal is burned out and he needs to go and get a new bulb. Then he has to figure out how to put it in... which is a war in itself. Also, he won't let me help... v.v (Stubborn.) haha aww... Nicky is stubborn, but that's why we love him. Right? Well, one of the reasons... ^^ He's silly. And adorable. *swoons*
And can you feel the love tonight
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
That we got this far
And can you feel the love tonight
How it's laid to rest
It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best
- Peter <3
